Is Regret good energy or bad energy?

The terms REGRET means the following:

"The pain of mind on account of something done or experienced back in the past, with a wish that it had been done differently."

"A looking back with dissatisfaction or with longing; grief; sorrow; especially, a mourning on account of the loss of some joy, advantage, or satisfaction."

Is is also possible to have regret for something that you chose NOT to experience?

Regret is feeling like an angel with only one wing...

In my life and my world I have definitely had moments where I wanted something, but my wanting was contingent upon someone else's cooperation or their desire to want the same thing. And thus some of my wants didn't come true as a result. At the time I may have had regrets because I would never know "what could have been."

Now in hindsight, of course, I see that even those holes of experiences I did want to experience, were indeed blessings in disguise.

So what does Regret have to do with finding your Twin Soul?

Is it possible to have met your Twin Soul, your one and only flame of true love, and to have let her or him go?

I find myself at an age where juvenile infatuation is not necessarily part of my life anymore. Although I love the feeling of being in love. Mostly because I quickly see through such shallow feelings and instantly transmute them into unconditional love. However, what is true and unconditional love? The kind of love you want to share with your Twin Soul?

How many times have you talked to a person in their 40s, 50s, 60s or even older, and they told you of that one special person that they knew was their Soulmate, their Twin Soul, and yet at that time they didn't recognize the power, they were lost in that feeling of childish infatuation and thus didn't recognize the true power of their connection?

How many people roam this Earth with aching hearts because they let the one person go that would have changed the entire course of their life?

I wonder how many people are out there having true regrets that they didn't follow their hearts at one point or another...

The question is, what are you to do if you have indeed let a person go?

Is there a way to get them back? Should you settle for second best? Should you wait for another life time to reunite with your Twin Soul?

We are told that if we seek with all of our hearts and all of our minds, we will find and shall have what we're looking for. It takes my entire system of desire, every atom, every molecule and neuron to work together to merging with this person. Is it hard work? Absolutely not. All it takes is patience, ease and a 100% match.

I'm calling for my 100% match - show me and communicate with me about what my next steps are in order to complete myself so I can stand before you ready for our merging.

Leadership vs. Mediocrity

David Deida wrote a great book called "The Way of the Superior Man." A must-have for all men and women. I am rewriting the following paragraph to address my beloved Twin Soul.

"Beloved, I know your weaknesses better than anybody. I know where you will falter and give up. I know the degree of medicirty you will settle for. And, I know your true capacity as a full man, a man of free consciousness and love. My gift to you, because I am a good woman, is to test you with my darkest moods, over and over and over, until your consciousness is unperturbed by my feminine challenge, and you are able to pervade me with your love, just as you are here to pervade the world. In response to your fearless consciouness, I will drench your world in love and light."

When you're out with your buddies and they encourage you to go ask that woman across the room for her phone number because she's been noticing you, you might have one of the following three internal dialogues:

There are three stages a man might handle this situation:

1. "She's interested in me, I should take advantage of the situation. No one will ever find out, or I can confess it later."

2. "I should indeed take advantage of her interest in me, but I won't because I made a promise to my partner that I won't cheat on her."

3. "I am not interested in the least because I've already met my 'one and only' and have everything I need and want in her."

The first guy is what women call "a dog." He'll take any opportunity to be with a woman whose interested in him. Most women would label the second guy for a great guy because of his strength not to ask an attractive woman for her phone number. They would be ecstatic to have a man like that in their life.

I on the other hand would be disappointed that you didn't take path number three. Granted, if you had chosen path number two, you didn't ask for her phone number, because right now we're in a great space, are in love, and are having a great time. But what would have happened if we had a fight that night and were going through a rough time in our lives? I wonder if a little "side step" with a stranger would have been a nice "break" for you... The reason you wouldn't ask for her number is not because of the promise you made to me, but because you believe that you're already with your Twin Soul and nothing can compare to our union.

What I want and desire more than anything in my man is strength of character. There are way too many whimps on this planet. You can promise the world to me and keep most of your promises. But if you are keeping your promises because of me and not because of your own character, than your promises eventually will crumble like a house of cards. These promises you make will result in seeds of resentment and eventually you would feel like I'm controlling you. I have no desire in being with you if you need to make promises to me... I need to know that you do and don't do things because it's just not who you are, or because it's just who you are and how you want to live your life, no matter what anyone else says, including me.

Your word must be worth gold to you. Let your "yes" mean "yes" and your "no" mean "no." Then I can trust you, surrender into you and be all woman. Then I can let myself go into your essence, knowing that the core of you will always keep me safe and that you never compromise our love, because you never compromise your soul.

STRENGTH OF CHARACTER wins by far any other qualities I am looking for in you. It translates into leadership that I can trust and in doing so you are building our stairway into heaven.

Giving Up? Vision for the Day...

What an interesting dream, question and interpretation I experienced this morning!

The Dream:

I was pregnant with a baby boy and drove to a hospital in another city. The hospital was still under construction and had no official patients. The doctor was a friend of mine and he showed me to the bed in the surgery room, where I would be giving birth to my baby boy. The baby was due, however, he had not dropped yet at all and was not even close to being born. The doctor asked me if he could give me drugs to speed up the process and I said: "Absolutely not." He asked me for a glass of water and I gladly accepted a glass of water. After drinking it, I felt dizzy and disoriented. I was alert enough to know that I was given some drug to speed up the process, and I felt betrayed and angry. Luckily and miraculously, the baby didn't react to the drugs and remained where he was, he simply refused to drop as he was just not ready. The doctor came and we talked about him looking for a place around the hospital where he could buy a nice house. However, the houses around the hospital were very expensive and he said that he would have to settle for the second most expensive place a little ways down the street. I gave him a list of other places near by that had extremely nice houses, but his heart truly was to finding something in the most expensive area, he seemed disappointed. Then I woke up.

Here is the question I asked more than a week ago, which Spirit matched up this morning:

"Should I let go of you, close off the relationship, turn my back once and for all, and is there someone else who is my one and only Twin Soul?"

I have done enough dream analysis and soul searching to know that giving birth in any dream is always a good omen (unless it's giving birth to something not of the light). My boy didn't want to be rushed, even though the due date has arrived, which can be likened to the stars having aligned to you being born, you had the final say-so and you were simply not ready (it showed in the fact that you hadn't dropped yet). Although you hadn't dropped, I still went to the hospital because I wanted you to be born now. I wanted to force you... I want my Twin Soul to be with me now, I am impatient. And although I didn't accept the drugs to speed up the process (which could be likened to me forcing the issue), I did drink the water, which contained a form of drug to speed up the process. I have to accept that somehow my behavior acts like an ultimatum to you, and I'm sorry. Thank God the baby is wise enough to know that he is not ready and for not being forced to be born when in reality he is not ready yet. In other words, my Twin Soul is just not quite ready yet to be in my life in the real flesh, even though ironically speaking you live inside of me and get nurturing from me from within, without a doubt. You still have your own growth to complete before you can be in my life in the flesh.

Doctors in dreams very often represent the God Self within us, the masculine power that has the scalpel to make a difference in someone's life, to save a life, to perform surgery on our soul, so we can live. This doctor was a friend of mine, of course, God is my best friend. I'm at a loss to understand what it means that the doctor gave me water with drugs in it to speed up the process. Perhaps it's my subconscious way of manipulating God's eternal wisdom to bringing this Twin Soul into my experience now? Perhaps it means that I'm shoving God out of the driver seat, telling him that he is working too slow here, "move over, I can do this faster." Forgive me.

The hospital was still under construction, it's a building where people will be saved and gain new hope. My life with my Twin Soul will serve humanity to gain new hope for their lives, where they get a new lease on their love life. In order for this hospital to finish, I need to first give birth to this baby boy. In other words, I can't force my Twin Soul to enter my life healthy, vibrant and full of life, unless he is truly ready, only then can we make a difference in people's lives. Our tree is life-giving, shade-giving, a resting place, for humanity. Our roots need to be strong, solid and intertwined.

My friend feels as though he needs to settle for second best as far as his life is concerned. I often wonder if I have to settle for second best unless you see that you need to be born into our existence. I am your half, I need you to complete the existence of the yin-yang in us and for the world, the figure 8 that runs in a forever loop of eternity and abundance. Without you the hospital will never be finished, because I can't do it on my own.

I won't settle for second best. I want the very best, the whole of the whole, the seed within the yin-yang, I want it all. I am waiting patiently until you're ready to be born. And I vow not to rush you but to let you choose your own time of birth. And when you do, you will find me. And I thank the infinite wisdom to bring forth patience from within, so I can hold your space...

From my own memory of being born, I was born 10 days late, I remember thinking: "I'm not going through there!" It was painful being born, it was dark, unknown and I didn't want to give up the comfortable, the known. So I want to accompany you through your birthing process, by telling you that there is a whole new world waiting for you once you decide to take the plunge and be born. Awaken and take the journey, it's all worth it my love.

Questions, Visions and Answers

I have started a different approach to getting my questions answered. I am fascinated at the accuracy and in-depth answers I receive simply writing down a question, folding up the piece of paper and putting it in an envelope. I also write down visions I receive, during my prayers and meditations. Days later, long after I have forgotten the question, I mediate after I read one of my short visions and then pick the envelope that shows the same callibration of frequency. I am floored, and yet not, to get so much insight to my questions.

Today I meditated when the following scene emerged from within:

You: "Will you move to Oregon with me?"

Me: "I would be honored to; by your side is where my home is."

After I told my girlfriend about my move here is her reaction: "Are you crazy!? Don't you have your own life."

Me: "I have a life as long as I am with him, no matter where that is."

Then I turned to you and said: "You are my family."

Here is the question I picked: "Should I wait for you or move on?"

Suddenly a scene flashed in front of my eyes, when "the blue man" in "The 5 people you meet in heaven" says to Eddie: "Strangers are family you simply haven't met yet."

I realized that you are my family because you are my Twin Soul. Running from you is like running from God. No matter where I run to, you'll be right there. Family will always be family, even if I decide not to talk to you for the rest of my family, the family ties remain through life times, centuries, eons, eternity. Sometimes it takes a holiday to bring family members back together.

I also realized from this vision that dedication and surrender are at the core of my desire. I understand the depth of our relationship and the task at hand. My home is by your side, no matter where you move us to. You are my leader and I rely on your great leadership.

Pray for us, beloved. And don't delay.

Why Are You Not Here?

It's evening time. I look at my bed. I look over at your side, the empty place that is awaiting your presence. Why are you not here tonight? You know where to find me. Where are you tonight? Whom are you with? Envisioning you here with me is so natural, so easy - I am calling you home. It's time now...

I find myself praying more than I have in the past, putting out my voice so it can reach you and echo back to me. Pray with me, my beloved. Pray for our reunion at this time. The world is waiting for our merging. You know the scientific and chemical happenings when Twin Souls reunite...it's powerful beyond measure. It's time to come home.

Twin Souls and Mirrors

I teach a class to women during which we play a game. They have approximately 10 important items to bid on. Some of these items are things like world peace, finding a steady-paying job, a great wardrobe, enjoying great health for the entire family, unlimited wealth, being in a happy relationship with their beloved, and so on. There are no rules to the game. In other words, they can join forces with other women, they can borrow from the bank, etc. The bidding starts at $5 per item and increases by $5 for each higher bid. They are given a list of all the items they can bid on ahead of time, so they can study each item and allocate what they might want to bid on.

I have taught this class several times (always to women) and it never fails that the winning item is always one and the same: being in a happy relationship with their beloved.

What was different in this last class was that only two women had enough money to pay for the final bidding amount, but all of them wanted this item more than anything. The two women who could pay for the item offered all of the other women to split the final bidding amount, so they each could have a happy relationship with their beloved. It was simply amazing!

I believe that every human being knows intuitively, subconsciously, spiritually, etherically, and whatever else you want to call the unseen realms, that to reunite with this Twin Soul is a most important goal, a calling from within, it's a going-home event that is of utmost importance to each and every one of us.

Of course, in reality it's not the Twin Soul that I am really needing, as much as he serves as my mirror, reflecting back to me the very Self of me, so that I can truly be whole and "go home" and be one with my God Self. And I in turn can do the same for him. We are twins, in the most literal, spiritual sense.

On a website I found this: "It would seem that this desire for oneness must be the foundation upon which all relationships are built. Male-female unions have come into being and have fallen apart for thousands of years. However, if a deep, spiritual union with our Source can be established and maintained, the chances for lasting joy and fulfillment becomes more and more of a possibility. It also seems to make more sense that our relationships should be based upon spiritual principals rather than man made religious dogmas which can bring so much fear and guilt into people's lives.

When we finally " wake up" and begin the journey Home to our Source, no longer needing experiences and feelings at the Earth's level of existence, corresponding twins will reunite once again. Male and female essence will blend into in one form, perfectly balanced, totally spiritual, with unconditional love for themselves and others. From that point forward they will remain as one for eternity as they coalesce with other reunited twins to recreate the soul groups they separated from a long time ago. Ultimately, all of us will reunite as the "original One."

How I long for this reunion! How I long to go home and be at rest, at peace, to surrender and to nestle into my beloved's soul where time and space truly disappear...

The Division of our Souls

On my journey to really wrap my soul around this joyous reunion, which lies ahead of me in the near future, I have come across some amazing material, insights, intuitive hits, dreams, visions and the "other side" continues to shower me with symbols of all kinds, to guide me gently, yet unmistakeably, towards my Twin Soul.

As I am understanding magnets and our magnetic forces of this Universe, I liken the joining with my Twin Soul to be inevitable, because we too are like magnets who were divided into two separate magnetic pieces, eons ago. Just like there are masculine and femininate polarities of everything that exists, the feminine exists within the masculine and the masculine exists within the feminine. In essence, as a woman I can never escape the masculine, it's part of who I am. Similarly, my Twin Soul's masculine essence has been retained in me and serves as a magnet, to calling him home.

When we meet, you will recognize yourself in me. And I will recognize my own Self in you. It's like a drowning in your eyes, into your soul.

So while I am roaming this earthly life on this planet, seemingly appearing "incomplete," I realize that I have to be complete and whole as the whole feminine part in order to be able to join with my whole masculine Twin Soul. If I am imcomplete, the joining won't take place. If I am looking to him to complete me, the joining won't take place. It's as if Hydrogen is mixing with a mixture of Oxygen and Iodine - it simply won't be able to create water - only PURE Hydrogen and Oxygen will do this part. Does this mean I have to be perfect before I can meet my guy? Absolutely not.

It does mean, however, that I have to be balanced in my masculine and feminine parts, as does he. Only when we are balanced and whole within ourselves, will our merging have the "home coming" effect that it is intended to be.

I realize that every powerful deed and outcome, no matter the task at hand, always is initiated with a commitment and intention, backed by ACTION. Reuniting with my Twin Soul can only happen if I am dedicated to my spiritual nature and through my own inner transformation that is so profound that it will affect the deepst part of my being as well as those around me.

The more I grow internally, spiritually, evolutionarily (if that is even a word), the more my soul craves to be united and completed with my Twin Soul. It's as if I knew that I have a purpose that can only be fully completed with him in the physical picture. It's like a doctor who walks into the surgery room but he's missing all of his tools and equipment. He knows he needs to do surgery on this patient, but he can't because he's missing the tools. In a similar way I feel like I have a job to complete but I am unable to without the presence and power of my beloved Twin Soul. I'm still in medical school and not allowed yet to be working with real scalpels...

Our souls were separated long ago and the essence of my soul and his soul know that the rejoining is incomplete as of yet, yet inevitable. It's part of the big divine plan. I believe that every human soul recognizes this joining, this calling, this need for merging - no matter how much it also terrifies us out at the same time. The search for our true beloved is like our first intimacy, initiated at the beginning of time, when we were first split into two parts, to realize the illusion called life, in which we live in today. Our entire goal is to reunite with our one and only light source, God, or whatever people call it. Part of this reunion is to merge back with our original Self, our Twin Soul.

I am longing to have you stand before me, in the flesh, in your 4-layered body suit, in all your glory, so we can continue this earthly journey together. So much work to do, so much love to spread, so much unity and light to provide...