Are You Ready For True Love?

"No one is ready for a thing until he believes he can acquire it. The state of mind must be belief, not mere hope or wish." Napoleon Hill

And I am going to peel the layers back a little more and take it a step deeper. If you know something beyond a doubt in your mind, belief is no longer needed...and is overcome by a knowingness that can only be described as divine. It's like tapping into the superconscious computer system of our divine headquarters. You know it with every fiber, molecule and atom of your Being.

I have surpassed the belief that my Beloved is searching for me as much as I am searching for you, I KNOW it. There is a deep knowledge that what is mine cannot be taken away from me, and what is yours cannot be taken away from you either. Thus I am at peace knowing that it is not a matter of "if" he will find me, it is only a matter of time until he is here in his physical appearance. Or perhaps he's already here and we simply haven't stepped up to the plate as of yet...

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The Pain of Cheating

There are always at least three "victims" when one person cheats on another.

1. The person who is being cheated on
2. The person whom is used to cheat on another
3. The person who does the cheating

When there are children involved, the children become victims too. Whether the cheating gets uncovered or not. Your friends get involved, they hurt for you. Your work suffers because you want to crawl up in a hole and die because the pain is so unbearable. And if the cheating takes enough breath from the people involved, entire groups of people and even entire communities and nations get affected (no need to remind us of the Clinton scandal).

But what happens when you ask the person to stop it because it hurts so much but he just won't stop (because the list of excuses is always the same)?

My Dad started an affair with his much younger secretary when I was 10 years old. Two years later it had blossomed to the kind of relationship he found it worth to leave his wife and two children for. He left and took my sister.

I remember feeling like he cheated on me, not my mother, but me personally. I never asked myself what I could have done differently to not have him leave; my Dad was weak and I never respected my Dad the way Dads deserve to be respected. And in a way I was glad his tyranny stopped. Dealing with my angry mother became a whole other world for me; one I didn't want to be part of anymore.

I was confused about whom I should be angry at: men for being cheating dogs and pigs or women for stealing married fathers from their little girls.

I decided to hate them both. And so I spent the next few years in hatred, which only caused me to get sick and sicker and sicker until I found myself on my death bed. To get the whole story you'll have to get the 6-hour audio program; it's a long story with a happy ending. For the sake of this post, let's just say that my father's cheating was not what hurt me, it was how he handled the situation after he came clean with it. People make mistakes and it takes two or three to cheat. Mistakes are to be forgiven. But what if someone continues to hurt you with the same pain over and over again even after you beg them to stop?

For years I swore to myself that I would never get married; I knew that I could never bare getting cheated on twice. When I met my future husband to be I changed my mind. He just didn't seem like the kind of guy that would cheat on me or anyone for that matter. And yet the first seven years of our marriage were spent in hell each time we had a fight. I was convinced that he would eventually cheat on me just like my father had, it was just a matter of time. I did so much injustice to my husband, and for that I'm so sorry. Lots of self-growth and therapy and after layers and layers of forgiveness spells I was able to let go of the hurt and pain from my Dad cheating and I also removed the burden from my husband.

Our marriage wasn't built on that solid stuff lasting marriages were supposed to be built on, and so it only lasted 14 years. But one thing my husband and I never did was cheat on each other. And for that I am eternally grateful.

And then I met a man I was utterly convinced was my Twin Soul. We were so intertwined and the same that it many ways it could be considered spooky. We even had body parts that showed identical markings, only on the other side. I had a mole on the left side of my face at the exact same spot where his was on the right side; even the mole looked the same. His right ankle was messed up, as was my left ankle. He had green dots in his eyes and I have yellow dots in my eyes. Our hands were shaped almost identical, only his were super sized. We even had obtained the almost identical injuries to our bodies over our life time. Experienced the same childhood stories in many ways, just amazing our lives as separate beings, yet so much the same. The most amazing thing was the way we could almost read each others' thoughts and feelings and the way we could feel each others' internal organs. I could feel his blood pressure and see his blood get pumped through his heart at certain intervals that painted a clear energetic picture for me, which in turn showed me his blood pressure as high or low. We could be standing or sitting hugging and as soon as his blood pressure would drop I could see it and feel it inside my own body. If I would wake up in the middle of the night, he would wake up at the same time and feel my anxiety, even though we were physically apart. It was simply amazing.

Yet no matter how much we felt that we were Twin Souls and how much we loved each other, he continued to cheat on me and so on himself and us.

I had never been cheated on, except by my father, and I remember the pain as if it was yesterday. The request to have this agony stop remained unheard, excuses came flowing in and nothing changed. Until the day my heart felt as though it broke to pieces. It was the day of our anniversary, when he cheated one last time. I could not take it anymore.

All my life I have lived my life as a "wall flower" in this department, like a good girl, a god-fearing woman, a one-man kind of woman, never having a one-night stand, wanting to serve my man whole heartedly, never allowing myself the space of unsafety, always caring for my soul with deep adoration and saving myself for the one Twin Soul. And yet I have made huge mistakes along the way and I have paid with much heartache as many others have. Why did I feel it necessary to muddy myself and letting myself be dipped in filth by a human being I had entrusted my fragile soul to this person? Most would call it blind faith, having those rose glasses on, love is blind, you know the drill. It was because of all the good we had in our relationship, it outweighed the cheating, at least so I told myself. But cheating hurts like hell, everyone who has ever been cheated on knows this first hand and you would like nothing more than to forget that nightmare. All you can think of and see if your beloved person being physically involved with that other person and it puts you on a downward spiral you can't seem to get out of; it's a nightmare you can't seem to wake up from.

For me it's the ultimate place of feeling unsafe, of having lost trust in this other person whom I have entrusted my soul in all its glory, as fragile as I was, only so he could drop it and trample it in the most defiling way possible. Some of you may not understand this, perhaps as I continue writing as the days and weeks and months go on, you will too.

Sometimes it takes a whole lot of pain from one person to another before we wake up. I had the opportunity to never get involved with this person, but because of how I felt it was my sincerest belief that this might just be my Twin Soul that I chose to get involved and gently dabble in what became an amazing journey otherwise. Filled with bliss, filled with agony because he wouldn't stop cheating.

Now looking back I am looking for hindsight to be my best friend - what was my lesson? Why did I let myself get treated so poorly?

Cheating is never okay, under no circumstances, and for no reason. If your spouse is no longer the person you want to spend the rest of your life with, then have the balls to leave her and keep your children in the holiness and dignity they deserve. I remember asking my mother why she stayed with my Dad when she didn't love him and she said: "Because of you and your sister."

I hated my mother for making us the glue to her unhappiness. At 12 years old I felt that she should have left him for the chance of finding someone else and get a chance at happiness. She said: "It was the 60s and I had 2 kids to support, not an easy time to find another man."

Bullshit all those excuses!

There are plenty of men who fall in love with pregnant women and are willing to adopt these children as theirs. There are plenty of great men out there! Making excuses is just another way of saying that you're weak and you don't deserve a chance at true love.

For those of you out there who have ever been cheated on - please stop being the martyr, you don't deserve to be cheated on, ever. There is never a good excuse or explanation. It's just plain wrong!

How can the person who claims to be your Twin Soul and love you so unconditionally get it on with somone else in the first place? Out of habit, out of duty, out of some sick and twisted responsibility? If he truly loved you and cared for you, all he would see is your hurt face while he's with someone else. That alone should make him rethink his actions. But obviously he's got a side to him that allows him to "tuck you away" until he's done with his most hurtful deed. Not much love there, if you ask me...

So feel your pain, own your part in it, let go of the anger eventually, and send the person who hurt you so much your blessings. Let them have the person they continue to cheat with, and wish them well, while you look on to grow from this and get ready for the true Twin Soul who would never hurt you in such a way. No matter how much it breaks your heart to move on. Your heart will heal in due time. For now let it be, let them go, and put your focus on you once again. Be gentle with yourself and love yourself first and foremost and swear to yourself to never let yourself be dragged through the mud in such a terrible way again.

Because no one deserves to feel so much torture and agony - no one.

Ask and You Shall Receive

Waiting and preparing a space for our Twin Soul takes energy, effort and a tremendous amount of desire. As everything goes and comes in cycles and rhythms, I too can feel the rhythms of desire for him stronger at times, and weaker at other times. Life gets in the way and distratctions serve to lead me off the path of wanting and desiring to be with my Twin Soul. Perhaps others feel the same as they go about life. Before you know it, evening time is here, it's dark and you feel like retracting, cuddling up on the coach while reading a book and sipping on tea. Then you realize that the bulk of your day went to your employer to making him or her wealthy, and little was done to build your own character and focus on your life instead. The same goes for just another year that has passed. Think about it, we're about to close off 2008. Another year where our Twin Soul has delayed...

So how can we foster and nurture this desire deep within? I often go to Walter Russell's books, and especially to the Divine Iliad, where it states:

"Seek ye, therefore, what ye will in Me and ye shall find it."

"But sit ye not and ask, acting not, for thy desire will not come to thee unaided by thine own strong arms."

I love the analogy of a seasaw. The fulcrum is the power, the desire is in the children wanting to make the seasaw swing. Nothing happens until the two children give it a go (and they put action behind their desire). The actual power of the seasaw, however, is in the fulcrum, the place that remains still. So it is with God and our desire. God (or Light) is our still fulcrum from where we get all of our power and inspiration and even a roadmap of how to make our desires a reality. So the power is here, we are co-creators with God to create ANYTHING we so desire. And yet, nothing happens if I don't back up my desire and take advantage of the power given me, and I don't bring to fruition the desire by the actions I take.

"What actions can I take to bring this Twin Soul into my life?" you might ask.

It's really simple. Live as if s/he is already in your life, pretend that s/he is already there living with you, coming home to you every day, and before you know it, s/he will be there. Prepare your place of living as if your Twin Soul is coming home every night, make it pleasant, inviting and romantic, make it sacred and holy and keep it that way. Don't meddle with "friends with benefits" just to "hold you over." Doing so will only keep him or her from coming to you. Keep your place sacred, keep your heart and your soul sacred by tuning into him or her frequently throughout the day. Write cards and letters, especially now during the holidays and Valentine's day is just around the corner. Date them and put them in a special box for when you can hand them over in real life. Put energy into your relationship "as if" your Twin Soul is already here.

Walk about your day with him/her by your side (energetically speaking). When you think about him or her, smile, let others see that you're in love with your Twin Soul. That you're taken and occupied by a special love that only you and your Twin Soul can complete. BELIEVE that s/he exists at this time. It's only a matter of time until you see his or her face...

Hard Women

After my last post about the sun and moon, something interesting opened up in me. It's nothing new to me that I should write about something and before I know it, more of the same topic suddenly surrounds me with plenty of examples to feed on and grow by. We live in an amazing Universe.

I talked about women who become hard and start to show "jagged" lines in their facial maps when they turn into "men" and start taking reigns into their own hands. I seem to know this better than anyone, having grown up with a father who was disappointed that I wasn't born a boy. While I loved hanging out with the boys and seemed to have a lot more in common with them when growing up, it's as if I was screaming at the Universe: "More of this please!" and the Universe submissively obliged by saying: "Your wish is my command."

By the time I was 12 my father and sister moved out, leaving my mother to work 6 days a week, 12 hour days. She had a hard time making ends meet. I had to find my own job and pay for my own clothes, which I bought at Salvation Army, and pay for my own food. I was my own breadwinner way too early on in life. And while it gave me some freedom to feel independent and self-sufficient, it was a struggle. My mother did a "good job" teaching me that everyone was, or at least should, live in scarcity mode and be a minimalist. I learned to reuse everything, including sowing together the holes at the bottom of my feet and using completely worn out clothes to patch holes and tears on my favorite jeans. I never heard of the concept that a "prince and knight in shining armor" would one day come and "rescue me." I wasn't broken, I wasn't threatened and I didn't need rescuing, least of all from myself. And for that I am grateful to this day.

Growing up like this I learned to do things from scratch, everything from bread, salad dressing, jam, I even made mayonnaise from scratch. I planted my own flowers in the garden, rather than buying them in a store. It was a very feminine time at the same time as it was a very masculine time.

Over the years however, I am realizing, from looking at my own facial map, that I dabbled way too much in the masculine area of life, foresaking my feminine essence. A couple of years ago I felt as though I needed to do something "feminine" for myself and I joined a belly dance studio and paid for one full month, which allowed me to take as many belly dance classes as I wanted to. I went 4 times a week and boy was I surprised to discover that my limber body was completely out of balance. First of all, I'm pretty flexible, do the splits and purposefully keep myself that way because I've lost use of my body before and appreciate my body immensly. So I thought shaking my hips would be a slam-dunk experience for me. I could shake it up pretty good on the right side but when it came time for my left side to follow along I was suprised to find my left side to almost "foreign" to me.

For those of you who don't know this, the right side of your brain, your intuitive side (moon side) is responsible for the left side of your body, which also relates to your mother or your feminine side in general. The left side of your brain consequently is your analytical, masculine side and is responsible for your right side of your body, you father's side, your strong side. Injuries to your left side of your body are often related to your feminine side, mother side, etc. Right side injuries are related to your masculine side, father side. Etc. It's pretty intuitive from here on out...

So my left side, mother and feminine side, was completely locked up and stiff and wouldn't swing and raddle to this sensual belly dance music at all. I was suprised to not only see the difference in the mirror, I was especially shocked at the way my left side felt. It felt as if the left side of my body didn't belong to me.

It made me sad at first, then I realized how much I had let the "little girl" in me be neglected, and it spurred me on to do more for this feminine side of mine. I stuck with the belly dance classes and decided to take a jewelry making class. I learned how to design from the right side of my brain and put my design on a piece of paper, saw brass and silver and create a beautiful piece of art (I designed two interlocking hearts that were joined by a crown). Then I took a precious metal clay class where I learned how to make silver earrings and other intricate designs. These experiences were very different from my upbringing and farm life.

This year I decided to take my "practice in femininity" to the next level and allow my feminine to be led, truly led by a man. I couldn't think of anything better than to take some Salsa classes. Not because I wanted to be a professional ballroom dancer, but because I knew that being led on a dance floor must be my ultimate challenge. Having been such a leader of my own life, my own finances and even screwing up my marriage because I constantly wore the pants, I knew taking partner-dancing would be my ultimate challenge (besides being in a relationship of course).

And I'm proud to announce that I did great. In fact one guy told me that approximately 20% of all women know even remotely how to follow and of the same 20% I probably belong to the top 1 or 2%. That made me feel really good!

I'm ready for the ultimate balancing act now: the relationship!

Well, so I thought at least. I'm learning, as you will too, that being ready to be in that one special Twin Soul relationship does take two to make the yin-yang complete. So where is my Twin Soul? Where is my special beloved and why has he not heard my call yet? What is it in me that repels him? What scares him off or keeps him away?

I know in the end the journey that seems to look completed once we have found this other person, will only lead us right back to ourselves. In other words, I'm not looking to be made complete, because I'm already complete. I am looking for the ultimate place of balance, the ultimate place of zero, of stillness where time and space disappear, where bodies disolve into nothingness and where we can die a mini-death that can only be described as divine.

And so I'm learning and realizing about myself that when I want something, I want it now. Actually, I want it yesterday. Patience is a virtue and therefore feminine. Impatience is masculine. It's like a tree (feminine) who stands firm on her roots, waiting patiently for her partner, the wind, to come and ruffles her leaves. She knows that he'll come, without a doubt he'll come.

Likewise, my beloved, I shall wait for the one who is available and ready, because he hears not only my calling, he hears his own calling within his own heart. It's like the Native American said in my dream last night as I was hugging him:

"The drums of your heart are transporting me home before many lifetimes when we were one."

True Femininity

What does true femininity mean? Many may point out a sensual woman, an actress like Sophia Loren or Marilyn Monroe. A woman who is curvy, voluptous and carries it well. One of my personal favorites is Jennifer Love Hewett - very feminine indeed. Femininity however goes truly beyong looks and an hour-glass figure. And then of course we have those that are so screwed up that they think anorexia is feminine (see photo below).

True femininity as in the opposite of masculinity, however, is something completely different all together. We all feature mascule and feminine sides and attributes, as it should be. And as a society we try to figure out what the "male species" and the "female species" is all about.

In Feng Shui things that are pointed or cornered are always male. Things that are round or wavy are always feminine. It's pretty simple and straight forward.

David Deida describes it this way: "If a man has a masculine sexual essence, then his priority is his mission, his direction towards the greater release, freedom, and consciousness. If a woman has a feminine sexual essence, then her priority is the flow of love in her life, including her relationship with a man whom she can totally trust, in body, emotion, mind, and spirit."

He goes on saying: "Your woman's core is fulfilled by love. Your core (the man's core) is released from stress by aligning your life with your mission. To you, intimacy is something to be enjoyed in addition to your purpose. To your woman, intimacy is at the core of her life, and the tone of your intimacy colors everything else she does."

"You (the man) are lodged in the heart of your woman. She feels you all day. She senses where you are at. Feeling-threads from her heart are connected to your heart, day and night. You are not replaceable in her perception."

He continues saying: "Without a deep and loving intimacy - with you or with the divine - she hurts. It will never work for her to try to quell the pain by absorbing herself in her career, her art, or her friends. If she has a feminine essence, she must honor herself by owning her deep desire for the flow of love in her heart, just as a person with a masculine essence must honor his or her direction in order to be truly happy."

And my favorite part saying it in plain English: "If one of your highest goals is psychological or spiritual reedom, then you will highly value your intimacy. Nobody will press your buttons or reflect your asshole to you better than your woman. She will point out your weaknesses better than a boot camp drill sergeant. She will reflect your ambiguity or clarity better than any workshop teacher. She will do you better than a whore and give you more loving than you can handle. And all the while she will shower your life with radiant blessing, healing, and enlivenment - if she learns to own her true feminine desires and you learn to own your true masculine desires."

I can't add to these words because they speak so true of how differently men and women function. Granted, we all have masculine and feminine tendencies. There is a core in each of us, however. And for me as a woman, my core needs to be "all woman." A difficult task for me because my Dad wished I was born a boy. He treated me like a boy most of my childhood and I didn't accept that I was a girl until I was 10 years old, long after I was enrolled in soccer, rugby, ice hockey and I came home dirty every night trying to catch frogs and crickets with the boys. I was a tomboy to say the least.

Femininity is new to me. Well, shall I say it's a new realization for me. It obviously has always been there (no sex change here, I'm all woman indeed). And at times I realize how powerful this feminine source is and I'm learning slowly but surely to stay in the feminine rather than hopping over to the masculine where it's much more comfortable (because it's so much simpler).

The masculine is black or white, up or down, yes or no - not much drama here.

The feminine seems to flow left, right, up, down, inside and out - how couldn't anyone get confused with all these directions! No wonder men are confused and never know what to expect!

So while I am waiting for you, my beloved Twin Soul, I shall have a lot of work to do finding my comfort zone in this wild, wild country of femininity. I may get lost from time to time, but I vow to continually work on becoming more feminine, and all the woman that I have come to be. Be it in the form of the make-up and clothes or wear (I just bought a pair of red high heels, my first I admit), or in the way I yield to a man's leadership because I understand and accept that this is his purpose.

Frankly, I'm tired and exhausted of looking like a woman, having a career like a masculine woman, wearing the pants in every situation and being a mother and father all at the same time. I long to be fragile, to nestle into your Being and to be able to surrender to you with my full confidence and trust.

It's time for us to be together and I am ready for you to come home...

Is Regret good energy or bad energy?

The terms REGRET means the following:

"The pain of mind on account of something done or experienced back in the past, with a wish that it had been done differently."

"A looking back with dissatisfaction or with longing; grief; sorrow; especially, a mourning on account of the loss of some joy, advantage, or satisfaction."

Is is also possible to have regret for something that you chose NOT to experience?

Regret is feeling like an angel with only one wing...

In my life and my world I have definitely had moments where I wanted something, but my wanting was contingent upon someone else's cooperation or their desire to want the same thing. And thus some of my wants didn't come true as a result. At the time I may have had regrets because I would never know "what could have been."

Now in hindsight, of course, I see that even those holes of experiences I did want to experience, were indeed blessings in disguise.

So what does Regret have to do with finding your Twin Soul?

Is it possible to have met your Twin Soul, your one and only flame of true love, and to have let her or him go?

I find myself at an age where juvenile infatuation is not necessarily part of my life anymore. Although I love the feeling of being in love. Mostly because I quickly see through such shallow feelings and instantly transmute them into unconditional love. However, what is true and unconditional love? The kind of love you want to share with your Twin Soul?

How many times have you talked to a person in their 40s, 50s, 60s or even older, and they told you of that one special person that they knew was their Soulmate, their Twin Soul, and yet at that time they didn't recognize the power, they were lost in that feeling of childish infatuation and thus didn't recognize the true power of their connection?

How many people roam this Earth with aching hearts because they let the one person go that would have changed the entire course of their life?

I wonder how many people are out there having true regrets that they didn't follow their hearts at one point or another...

The question is, what are you to do if you have indeed let a person go?

Is there a way to get them back? Should you settle for second best? Should you wait for another life time to reunite with your Twin Soul?

We are told that if we seek with all of our hearts and all of our minds, we will find and shall have what we're looking for. It takes my entire system of desire, every atom, every molecule and neuron to work together to merging with this person. Is it hard work? Absolutely not. All it takes is patience, ease and a 100% match.

I'm calling for my 100% match - show me and communicate with me about what my next steps are in order to complete myself so I can stand before you ready for our merging.

Giving Up? Vision for the Day...

What an interesting dream, question and interpretation I experienced this morning!

The Dream:

I was pregnant with a baby boy and drove to a hospital in another city. The hospital was still under construction and had no official patients. The doctor was a friend of mine and he showed me to the bed in the surgery room, where I would be giving birth to my baby boy. The baby was due, however, he had not dropped yet at all and was not even close to being born. The doctor asked me if he could give me drugs to speed up the process and I said: "Absolutely not." He asked me for a glass of water and I gladly accepted a glass of water. After drinking it, I felt dizzy and disoriented. I was alert enough to know that I was given some drug to speed up the process, and I felt betrayed and angry. Luckily and miraculously, the baby didn't react to the drugs and remained where he was, he simply refused to drop as he was just not ready. The doctor came and we talked about him looking for a place around the hospital where he could buy a nice house. However, the houses around the hospital were very expensive and he said that he would have to settle for the second most expensive place a little ways down the street. I gave him a list of other places near by that had extremely nice houses, but his heart truly was to finding something in the most expensive area, he seemed disappointed. Then I woke up.

Here is the question I asked more than a week ago, which Spirit matched up this morning:

"Should I let go of you, close off the relationship, turn my back once and for all, and is there someone else who is my one and only Twin Soul?"

I have done enough dream analysis and soul searching to know that giving birth in any dream is always a good omen (unless it's giving birth to something not of the light). My boy didn't want to be rushed, even though the due date has arrived, which can be likened to the stars having aligned to you being born, you had the final say-so and you were simply not ready (it showed in the fact that you hadn't dropped yet). Although you hadn't dropped, I still went to the hospital because I wanted you to be born now. I wanted to force you... I want my Twin Soul to be with me now, I am impatient. And although I didn't accept the drugs to speed up the process (which could be likened to me forcing the issue), I did drink the water, which contained a form of drug to speed up the process. I have to accept that somehow my behavior acts like an ultimatum to you, and I'm sorry. Thank God the baby is wise enough to know that he is not ready and for not being forced to be born when in reality he is not ready yet. In other words, my Twin Soul is just not quite ready yet to be in my life in the real flesh, even though ironically speaking you live inside of me and get nurturing from me from within, without a doubt. You still have your own growth to complete before you can be in my life in the flesh.

Doctors in dreams very often represent the God Self within us, the masculine power that has the scalpel to make a difference in someone's life, to save a life, to perform surgery on our soul, so we can live. This doctor was a friend of mine, of course, God is my best friend. I'm at a loss to understand what it means that the doctor gave me water with drugs in it to speed up the process. Perhaps it's my subconscious way of manipulating God's eternal wisdom to bringing this Twin Soul into my experience now? Perhaps it means that I'm shoving God out of the driver seat, telling him that he is working too slow here, "move over, I can do this faster." Forgive me.

The hospital was still under construction, it's a building where people will be saved and gain new hope. My life with my Twin Soul will serve humanity to gain new hope for their lives, where they get a new lease on their love life. In order for this hospital to finish, I need to first give birth to this baby boy. In other words, I can't force my Twin Soul to enter my life healthy, vibrant and full of life, unless he is truly ready, only then can we make a difference in people's lives. Our tree is life-giving, shade-giving, a resting place, for humanity. Our roots need to be strong, solid and intertwined.

My friend feels as though he needs to settle for second best as far as his life is concerned. I often wonder if I have to settle for second best unless you see that you need to be born into our existence. I am your half, I need you to complete the existence of the yin-yang in us and for the world, the figure 8 that runs in a forever loop of eternity and abundance. Without you the hospital will never be finished, because I can't do it on my own.

I won't settle for second best. I want the very best, the whole of the whole, the seed within the yin-yang, I want it all. I am waiting patiently until you're ready to be born. And I vow not to rush you but to let you choose your own time of birth. And when you do, you will find me. And I thank the infinite wisdom to bring forth patience from within, so I can hold your space...

From my own memory of being born, I was born 10 days late, I remember thinking: "I'm not going through there!" It was painful being born, it was dark, unknown and I didn't want to give up the comfortable, the known. So I want to accompany you through your birthing process, by telling you that there is a whole new world waiting for you once you decide to take the plunge and be born. Awaken and take the journey, it's all worth it my love.

Watch a Special Movie I made for my Love

Ah, I figured out how to imbed our movie into this post, rather than sending you away. So here it goes again...

Very rarely do two people find each other, yet when they do, entire galaxies are shaken up...This is a true love story. Just when life is over and flashes by you one more time, you'll realize that all that mattered was love and kindness. So when watching this video of this true story, imagine your own journey of love to be just as significant and inspirational (never settle for less than what you truly deserve). And the Universe shall deliver you just that: True and Unconditional Love.

What Is a Twin Soul?

Meeting the "other half of your soul" is generally so life changing and profound that this question is unnecessary.... you just know. Twin souls will both recognize this extraordinary bond, whether they are evolved and whole enough to acknowledge and act upon it is another thing. Meeting with your twin soul brings about an internal spiritual revolution, a deeper connection and understanding of the Divine and the Universal Oneness, this is the greatest gift of knowing your twin. Twin soul love is not to be confused with an obsessive/compulsive disorder, it's not a desire to "possess" another, but truly a challenge to love unconditionally and without expectation, to be whole and complete within yourself before joining with the other whole and complete side of your soul. The longing and desire to be with your twin soul is intense, but through growth and perception can be seen as the greater longing to join with the Divine, and that is the true lesson, you are two halves of a much greater whole.

When you meet your twin, there will be no "game-playing" or manipulation, you will have the need to be transparently honest in your relationship and communication with one another. If there is karma from past lives to work out between you, it will be apparent and consciously worked out. Meeting your twin soul challenges you to grow spiritually, heal mentally, emotionally, physically, and to see beyond time, ego, and physical limitations. You will be driven with the desire to be the best manifestation of your soul on earth. This is not a relationship of hearts and flowers, but one that will be tested in fire and will endure beyond time and space.
Then, during reunion, the essence of one simply flows into the essence of the other to create the completeness. There is no effort involved.


It is also impossible for twin souls to remain separated on any kind of permanent basis. When in relationship, they may continue to have conflicts. However, they will be driven to resolve these conflicts (and any past karma) as quickly as possible. Nothing is left unsaid. Nothing is left to chance. Assumptions never enter their minds. All is out in the open. Neither sits, pouts and wonders who will make the first move at "making up." There are no games. There is no pretending. There is no deception. There is no fear of reprisal because unconditional love is the foundation upon which their relationship has been built. In essence, they can just be themselves. And as each conflict resolves, the bond of love between them takes on renewed meaning and strength. What incredible freedom! Such is the nature of this very divine and profound union.

How will you know you have met your twin?

· Chances are you've met through a set of unusual circumstances... totally unplanned and unexpected
· There is an instantaneous feeling that you have known the other before
· You felt an immediate and deep connection for one another
· There is an electrifying feeling between the two of you that words cannot describe
· The relationship is immediate... as though no time had been lost since you were last together
· It feels as though you had never lived before the reunion occurred
· You feel a deep sense of unity that you've have never known before
· It brings on feelings you never thought possible
· The two of you are inseparable
· When you look into each other's eyes time and space have no meaning
· There are no barriers between the two of you... the relationship is a totally open one
· Your conversations seem to go on forever
· The two of you have a strong urge to serve humanity in a deep and meaningful way
· You give to the other and never think of receiving in return
· There is a special sacredness to your relationship that transcends anything you've ever experienced before
· You still have karma with your twin (from previous lives) but the two of you resolve it all with total forgiveness and unconditional love
· Neither one of you are dependent on the other for your sense of self
· There is a real feeling of unlimitedness to your feelings... you have a strong sense of eternity
· Your feelings for each other are very spiritual
· There are no restrictions within the relationship... all is freedom without the need for ownership or control
· The two of you know without doubt that you have been brought together for a reason
· You do not compete with one another nor do you pretend to be other than who you are
· In spite of your sameness there is no doubt you feel a sense of completion through the other
· Trust, patience, acceptance of each other's weaknesses happen automatically
· There is a great sense of purpose and meaning to the relationship
· Your sexuality with one another is a sacred act that celebrates the unconditional love you have for one another
· When you look into the other's eyes you see yourself
· You experience a sense of completeness that is without comparison

Holding our space my Beloved...

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Very rarely do two people find each other, yet when they do, entire galaxies are shaken up...This is a true love story. Just when life is over and flashes by you one more time, you'll realize that all that mattered was love and kindness. So when watching this video of this true story, imagine your own journey of love to be just as significant and inspirational (never settle for less than what you truly deserve). And the Universe shall deliver you just that: True and Unconditional Love.