Sex, God, Money, Politics

There are a few things most people don’t want to talk about. They are: Sex, God, Money, Politics (which inadvertently mixes together the first three).

Let’s talk about the S word (as my daughter would say). There is so much to say about sex, the need for it, the origin of it, its past and its future, its actual purpose (depending on whom you ask) and what can and cannot be accomplished with it. We can look at sex as the merging of feminine and masculine, a physical act for the reasons to procreate (instinct), a release of energy, obtainment of energy from the other partner, a primal means to calm down, a cleansing ritual, the “coming home” to a blissful state, recharging ones batteries, arriving at heaven for a moment of rest, and so on.

Depending on whom we talk to, we’ll get as many different opinions about the need for sex and what happens during sex as there are people on this planet. No one is right and no one is wrong. We’re all on our own journey and what may seem wrong to me may be a way for someone else to survive. A great book to read is Power vs. Force by Dr. David Hawkins. Growing up I used to judge people who smoke, drink or do drugs. Because that is what I grew up with and I saw the effect on the surrounding world. I was born having difficulties breathing because my parents both smoked and my mother smoked when she was pregnant with me. My father was an alcoholic and I saw him screw up his relationship with my mother (I’m sure she had her part in the break-up too). Sex became bad because my Dad cheated on my Mom and ended up leaving us for “the other woman.” Soon I came to view all of “it” as bad, as unnecessary, as evil and as a nuisance. It was my journey and needless to say if I ever would get married it would have to be to a man who didn’t want sex from me. Good luck! Like that was going to happen.

Dr. Hawkins book really helped me understand why people do what they do, without the need to judge anyone. Once I was divorced I went on a journey to find out what sex really meant to both men and women. I came across Nancy Fiday’s books, which helped me tremendously in understanding the human species. Animals don’t have a choice in mating or not mating, they are ruled by instinct and are primal, pro-creation and survival is there number one concern. Humans do have free will and we make a conscious choice, something an animal cannot do. Still, so much is happening as two people merge their bodies together to becoming one. Just like any battery has a + and a – part of the energetic pole, once activated the battery is capable to charge a piece of equipment up. Similarly, when a + male and a – female merge their bodies, they undoubtedly create “something.”

When a battery is being used or charged up there is only energy oscillating between the + and – parts of the battery. Unfortunately when two human batteries comes together to merge and create energy, worlds are created (or destroyed). It’s not just a physical energy exchange, the merging is manifesting so much more with consequences that most people don’t want to know or hear about; if people could just see the spirals and vortexes and funnels that are emanating from them and merging with the other person to forever be implanted into the universal soil called ether, to one day create something very powerful (or very destructive). Little do people know that once they merge with another person on a physical level and funnels and vortexes and spirals have been exchanged, they will forever take that person’s energy with them and be influenced by them. It’s like taking white play dough and mixing it with green play dough and then trying to separate the two, it’s an impossibility. Or putting a drop of ink into a glass of clear water, and then trying to take the drop of ink out of the water that is now tainted.

The more impressive part that most people don’t know about or even imagine that every exchange with another human being is a form of sex exchange. It doesn’t have to be in a romantic way, but in an energetic way. The moment two people lock their eyes together, whether during a conversation or while passing a stranger on the street, both people are constantly “shooting” spirals, vortexes and funnels out into the universe. It’s our essence that we project to the world. When we lock eyes we lock energies with the other person and instantly take a piece of their energy and give them ours. The Sanskrits believe that as soon as a woman sleeps with a man she takes on his entire karma. I happen to believe the same goes for men too. Most people’s energy I frankly don’t care to carry with me. I just am not strong enough to take on other people’s karma, I have enough of my own to work through. And unless the other person’s energy can help me work through my karma I’d rather not pack more unnecessary life times on top of this one.

So why is this such a big deal? Over the past few years I have been a landing place for friends and clients to listen and help them see a part of their existence that can’t be viewed with our regular human eyes. Over the years I started to make a connection to a person’s personal power level and the number of physical partners they have had in their life. This may sound strange, however, what I found is that the more partners anyone had (man or woman) the more “watered down their soul” had become and they had started to lose a piece of their essence. It’s as if every time they had sex with someone they gave the other person a piece of their soul to keep forever. When the relationship or event was over the piece(s) they had given away could not be recovered. I also saw that the more partners someone had, the more they wanted to expand their “territory” and the more “free” they became to be with eve more people. It is a false freedom, however. One that comes at the cost of their own authenticity and may cause a person to go back in line to start their own evolutionary journey once again. For what, I ask.

A person I have known for almost two decades chose to sleep with as many women as he could, he always has, he still does; hundreds of them, perhaps even thousands of them. Today that he is in his 40s he’s realizing that he will never be able to regain the innocence that can only come from having all the pieces to his soul. He’s lost, he doesn’t know anymore what he wants. Women still throw themselves at him, but only because they’ve been sexually frustrated for so long, he spells their sexual freedom, something they perhaps have never experienced. Yet none of them want to stay, not one would ever want to have someone “like him” to be at their side. He’s good “for one thing.” He’s chasing through women constantly looking for the next one, constantly proving his self-fulfilling prophecy that proves that women are only here for one thing: to be used and then tossed to the curb. He has an amazing charm and at first blush really seems to know what women want. But a deeper look into his lonely soul proves otherwise, as do his eyes. The sad part is that he’s looking for an “innocent” woman who hasn’t been around the block as often as he has. Yet how can he ask of the Universe to deliver him Cinderella when he himself doesn’t live like this even to this day?

Just over the past two months I had two friends approach me who both got married young. One got married around 19, the other around 25. Both had slept with “only” 5 women. They are in their 30s now and they are longing for a temporary change and temptation for both of them from the other women is difficult to withstand. They both love their wives, they have children by them and they are committed to staying faithful. If they could just go out and dabble with other women a few times….to kick off those horns, sow the wild oats, to get some more adventure – whatever all these expressions are. What neither of them understand is that one of the reasons they are so irresistible to other women is because of their lack of experience. It’s because they still own their own power, they haven’t given it away, they haven’t slept around, neither of them ever had a one-night stand.

Women being the intuitive beings they are can sense that from 10 miles away and such men become the irresistible magnets. Although women love a man who can show them a thing or two in the bedroom, a man who has the kind of power that can come from a strong and pure soul is rare and every woman intuitively wants to merge with that power, by means of physical exchange. Will they be able to stay faithful to their wives? It’s not for me to predict. I can tell you that if they are both hydrogen and they both married their equivalent parts of oxygen and their marriage equilibrium is water, they will make it without a doubt. What concerns me is that they still long for other oxygen…When hydrogen and oxygen merge, water is the merging’s inevitable result. When two people merge that are truly meant to be together, it will show in evidence in what they create for this world. If there is no evidence, then perhaps the chemistry is lacking to produce that miracle that we all need. So what? You’ve discovered that your partner is indeed not your matching hydrogen or not your matching oxygen. But you’ve said: “Until Death Do Us Part” and perhaps you even have created children that now count on you. What should you do? I can’t tell you what you “should” do. In fact, I have for the most part eradicated that word out of my dictionary. Remember, this is your journey and there is no should or should-nots. It all depends on what you have come here to create.

Why are you here on planet earth? Is your partner’s purpose in alignment with yours and yours with hers? Remember it is life-sustaining and nurturing water you are here to create. If you’re just trotting along next to this person’s life while creating absolutely nothing useful for not only you, but also nothing useful for your child(ren) and even less for the planet, then what are you really doing here? Read “The Greatest Miracle In The World” by Og Mandino. You have a magnificent purpose here on this planet. You are unique as is your partner. No one can take your job, your position, your spouse who is your true oxygen or your true hydrogen, and no one can replace your true purpose here on this planet. The question is, are you about your true purpose yet? Or are you just fiddling around wasting time until the next life time? When I “got this” once and for all I realized that I could stick it out with a man I was never supposed to be with in the first place or I could leave us in peace and become about my purpose and give him the chance so he too can become about his purpose.

I’m not directly responsible for his journey and the decisions he makes, but I am directly responsible for mine and indirectly responsible for everyone else's, including his. However, I can only take responsibility for myself and others if I am first living the free life that I have truly come to live, I am responsible to lead by example. I also am responsible to be a role model to my daughter and to show her that settling for anything less than her purpose and the man who is her exact hydrogen counter part will prove to be futile with only heart ache in sight. She’s almost 15 and she’s already beginning to get it. The moment she sees that she wishes something was different about this other person, is the moment she realizes she is dealing with "a square peg" that she's trying to fit into a round hole. It doesn't work, it never will. I was courageous and loved my husband enough to set him free. This was over 4 years ago and it was the best thing I ever did for everyone involved. Especially this planet and humanity as a whole.

The world is waiting for you!

Relationships and their Impact on our Society

Marriage, divorce and relationships in general have a huge impact on our health and overall well-being. Just this week our county suffered a tragic loss to suicide. A 25 year old young woman who shot herself to death because her boyfriend broke up with her. If you've never "been that low" I hope you can reserve judgment for people who do go to the edge where pain seems too overbearing. The woman was not only beautiful, she was successful, had a great job with lots of promises ahead - yet nothing seemed to heal her heart from her break-up with her boyfriend. Suicide seemed like her only way out. As a suicide prevention counselor I see the complaint about loneliness all too many times, and most never call the hotline to get help. It doesn't have to be this way. Yet this is the reality for so many.

The bible says: "Let no man separate what God has joined together." (Please note that I am not religious and do not belong to any religious groups or churches.) If the word "joined" would have been translated accurately from the Hebrew, the word would actually have been "welded." Welding two people together, or anything that is welded together for that reason, cannot be ripped apart without damage to both parts. Any welder knows this, any jewelry maker knows this. Yet as people we rip apart our own marriages all day long.

But what if we forgot to pay attention to the middle part of the sentence? "Let now man separate WHAT GOD has welded together." What if your marriage wasn't welded together by God at all? What if it's us humans getting infatuation confused with unconditional and true love, which causes us to squeeze a square peg into a round hole? Can we truly say then that God put the marriage together? Some of you may say: "Well, we are all gods, God acts through us, therefore, we are gods of our own lives." Yes, that is very well true - we are also told that "The Heart is deceitful above all things." Knowing that full well, I also know that now looking back, my "red flags" came along right with the feelings of love, of wanting to truly make it work, of wanting to be "at home" with this person for the rest of our lives: "Until Death Do Us Part." I shrugged the red flags under the rug and only looked at the good feelings and intentions, hoping the red flags would disappear over time, or be transformed over time. Ah, I was notorious for HOPING that he'll change, or that IT will change. And it never does, does it Ladies...

And now in hindsight, almost 4 years later, I have learned this wisdom. God never welded together our marriage at all. THAT was the thing we tried to do for almost 15 years, we tried to weld and mold and join and weld some more. But it would never stick long enough. It was exhausting to say the least. And our marriage never welded, never joined, we never succeeded at squeezing the square peg into a round hole...Let’s look at some statistics (Source for all statistics: http://www.divorcereforum.org/):

1. America has the highest divorce rate in the world

2. The number of divorces has quadrupled from 4.3 million in 1970 to 18.3 in 1996

3. Divorces cost Americans $33.3 Billion each year

4. Each divorce costs the government approximately $30,000 in increased food stamps, juvenile delinquencies and increased bankruptcies

5. 75% of all divorces are initiated by women (I heard that 85% of women today don't even want to get married anymore)

6. Divorce counts for a major reason of suicide amongst males

7. There are almost 1 million attempted suicides each year

8. 50% of all children involved never see their fathers again one year after the divorce

9. Children in single family households are twice as likely to develop serious psychiatric illnesses and addictions later in life

10. Approximately 1 million children each year are affected by divorce

11. Fatherless homes account for:
• 63% of youth suicides
• 90% of homeless / runaway children
• 85% of children with behavior problems
• 71% of high school dropouts
• 85% of youth in prison
• 50+ % of teen mothers

What does this statistic have to do with chronic illness?

a. I believe that most illness is caused by stress.
b. I believe that most stress in today's world is caused by mismatching ourselves with the wrong people (not only our marriage or love partners, this also includes the families we live with, the friends we choose, the bosses we choose to work for, and the overall environment we set up around ourselves).

WHY DO WE DO THIS TO OURSELVES? And for what?

Do we suffer "in the name of love?" There is not much love there trying to squeeze a square peg into a round hole, hoping for the square peg to one day fit. It'll never fit. Just like Hydrogen and Peroxide will never make water, a wrongly matched couple will never create anything productive and useful for humanity.

Are you asking yourself just about now: "I wonder if I'm with the right partner." Then read between your own lines, because your answer is within that same question...

There is nothing wrong with waiting for the "one and only" - your Twin Soul. On the contrary: bliss and true love await...

Spirituality and Sex - What Went Wrong?

How many times have you heard someone say: "We live only once." (Translation: Therefore, let's go out and commit all the evil we can while we have a chance...)

We live and sleep around as if we truly did live only once. Unfortunately what takes place on a spiritual level when two people merge their bodies, be in in the way of true Twin Soul love or a "quickie" with someone with "no strings attached," matters and shapes your energetic DNA and your future life times.

We have heard of the "law of balance," or at least of something called "duality." Up and down, in and out, as above so below, and so on. Everything that happens on this physical plane also happens on a non-physical level. When we die we leave this physical body, this shell if you will, behind. We take with us the memory of what we have experienced in this life time as well as all previous life times. Based on these memories we formulate the lessons we need to learn in our future life times to come.

Most know that we have what's called an aura. Just like a flame on a candle gives out a beautiful light around its flame, we too have a flame inside of us, which is our soul, and it too gives out a beautiful light around us, which we call aura. This aura is of an energetic nature and can have rips and tears and streaks in it just like any other fabric. Everything and everyone we encounter, whether in our real body or just inside our minds, shapes and colors our aura.

Being in a room with another person immediately affects your aura, for the better or worse, depending on the other person's energy and your weakness or strength to uphold your own frequency.

Just like we recharge batteries with masculine and feminine energy, our bodies get recharged by merging our physical bodies with our counterparts. We need this life giving and life sustaining merging in order to recharge our batteries (our bodies) and continue on with life. Merging with just anybody can have detrimental effects on our bodies. It's of utmost importance that we merge with only the person who is as close to equal as possible to our energetic charge or our battery (body) gets damaged. Electricity always travels downhill faster than it does uphill. The same principle applies when you merge your body with someone whose energetic callibration is of a much lesser strength than yours. You being the higher vibrational being are being pulled down much faster than the other person is raised to your frequency.

Merging your body in ecstasy with the right person, your Twin Soul, opens up your channels to art, innovation, creation, progress, life, growth, change, inventions and everything good in life. We always merge our energies with people we meet physically or even only on a mental level. Where this meeting becomes even more powerful is if our bodily fluids become part of this exchange. It is during these interactions that energy exchanges become actual links like those in a chain, and our DNA strands become interlocked. The person you want to be interlocked with forever is your Twin Soul, not some stranger you met at the local bar for a one night stand. Unfortunately that person's DNA is now interlocked with you too, long after you've already forgotten his name, if you ever even got his name.

Our auras are affected to certain levels of degrees. If you look at a child you see its pure aura surrounding its being. If you look at a prostitute you see her aura of a tainted and merky matter. The more physical partners anyone has had, the more "watered down," distorted and weak their aura looks and feels.

Sexual intercourse creates an even more intense bond energetically and physically, than if you're just shaking a person's hand and sit next to them during a business dinner. Allowing a man to penetrate you is allowing him to interlock your DNA with his on a forever plane. Receiving and absorbing his physical bodily fluids fills your DNA with the entire blueprint of all of his memories, this life time as well as past life times. In fact, the Sanskrit's believe that a woman who sleeps with a man takes on his entire karma at the time of intercourse. Energy strands known as "cords" remain attached to both of you, long after your relationship is over. His energy is with you for years and life times to come, until your karma with this person is resolved. It should take an act of love to be willing to take on another person's karma and live with them for life and help each other resolve each other's karma, rather than enjoy a few thrills of bodily orgasms, which only serve to add to your current karma rather than reduce it.

Two people who are truly Twin Souls are able to literally feed each other through these cords, anything from energetic foods of positive thoughts to spurts of happiness. This cord is their lifeline to each other. It's this person you want to interlock with for eternity, because your Twin Soul in essence is a replica of you, it is you, your mirror image, you only reversed. Anyone else is an intruder and will cause your energy to dissipate over time, making you sick physically and mentally, incapable of thinking straight or producing anything of value in this life.

Our planet Earth is our home, it's where we all live and enjoy her boundless resources. Imagine if we just took and took and took and took and completely depleted her resources, we'd have no home left to live in. The same goes for our bodies. Our body is our home, we have to watch our resources (energy) and how we spend our energy. We can't give our energy out freely and merge with people we have no business merging with. In doing so we only deplete our own planet, our own body. Just like we can't use the planet as a dumpsite, we can't use our body to feed it garbage (sex that is not based on love and is not based on rejuvinating both partners).

This doesn't mean that we should only have sex with the person we married, especially not if you realize that the person you married was the wrong person for you in the first place. In doing so you only further damaging your own body, your aura and your spiritual journey on this plane. Instead, remove yourself from that person, cleanse yourself of that person's energy, their cords and your karma with them. Merge with only one person who is your Twin Soul so you can gain the highest benefit from your "battery recharging system." Look at this union as a bucket or container into which both of you pour your heart-energy into. When the bucket is full you can feed off of it for a long time to come, when the container is empty you fill it up again (by having more sex). But you never, ever pour the energy out of the bucket onto the floor where it would spill and go to waste, by merging your sacred energy with somone other than your Twin Soul.

If you are being cheated on or you're the cheater, than you're taking the contents of this sacred container and you're wasting what has been poured in holiness. Your aura will reflect this spill and the aura of the person whom you're cheating on will reflect this lack in forms of rips and shreds (that's why you feel like you're being torn to pieces when someone cheats on you, the tearing is real) and with a lack of glow on her face. Watch an unhappy woman carefully and you'll easily pick up a man who lacks responsibility by her side. Watch an unhappy man the same way and you'll quickly pick up an unsurrendered woman by his side. Both meddle in other people's energies and have given up feeding what each other give each other. Trust is lost.

Meddling with other people's physical bodies (cheating) not only leaves you marked aurically with that other person's DNA but you are physically merging three people's bodily fluids into one. The science of this is not seen in Mother Nature, ever. All we see if the merging of two compatible opposites, such as hydrogen and oxygen creating something brand new: water. Sodium and chlorine creating something brand new: table salt. The same takes place with us. You cannot create water by merging hydrogen, oxygen and peroxide - it simply won't work. In the same way, you cannot expect purity, trust and love when that is not why and how you're merging with another person.

Yet we try it all the time and then we wonder how come true love never seems to come our way!

The bible talks about us being virgins when we get married. Often we feel that we are serving a God who wants to punish us because he supposedly doesn't want us to enjoy physical pleasure by having sex with people. Little do we know that when two aurically pure beings merge for the first time and forever stay together, that we have two people that are aurically so bonded and pure that they can undertake anything they choose and they are energentically and in any other way supported by the laws of nature. Aurically pure couples are additionally protected by a special, non-penetrateable shield that most won't ever attain. They also don't have any cords that keep them from what's really important. It's not that God is a mean God, it's because God is a loving God that we're told to merge as virgins.

Now this may put a damper on most people because how many people do you know who are still virgins? So what are you to do if you're no longer a virgin?

There is a lot you can do; for one you can "go back" in time and cleanse yourself from the cords and energetic attachments of other people. You can decide to get a fresh start and to keep yourself from getting muddied even more and keep yourself clean and pure until you meet your Twin Soul. Work on yourself first and get yourself ready for that joyous reunion. Know that it will happen sooner than you think.

Most of all, forgive. Others as well as yourself for having merged with people you really didn't want to merge with in the first place, but did anyway. Perhaps you didn't have any control over it; set them free anway, let them go in peace and with forgiveness in your heart, wishing them only love and purity as well.

Ask and You Shall Receive

Waiting and preparing a space for our Twin Soul takes energy, effort and a tremendous amount of desire. As everything goes and comes in cycles and rhythms, I too can feel the rhythms of desire for him stronger at times, and weaker at other times. Life gets in the way and distratctions serve to lead me off the path of wanting and desiring to be with my Twin Soul. Perhaps others feel the same as they go about life. Before you know it, evening time is here, it's dark and you feel like retracting, cuddling up on the coach while reading a book and sipping on tea. Then you realize that the bulk of your day went to your employer to making him or her wealthy, and little was done to build your own character and focus on your life instead. The same goes for just another year that has passed. Think about it, we're about to close off 2008. Another year where our Twin Soul has delayed...

So how can we foster and nurture this desire deep within? I often go to Walter Russell's books, and especially to the Divine Iliad, where it states:

"Seek ye, therefore, what ye will in Me and ye shall find it."

"But sit ye not and ask, acting not, for thy desire will not come to thee unaided by thine own strong arms."

I love the analogy of a seasaw. The fulcrum is the power, the desire is in the children wanting to make the seasaw swing. Nothing happens until the two children give it a go (and they put action behind their desire). The actual power of the seasaw, however, is in the fulcrum, the place that remains still. So it is with God and our desire. God (or Light) is our still fulcrum from where we get all of our power and inspiration and even a roadmap of how to make our desires a reality. So the power is here, we are co-creators with God to create ANYTHING we so desire. And yet, nothing happens if I don't back up my desire and take advantage of the power given me, and I don't bring to fruition the desire by the actions I take.

"What actions can I take to bring this Twin Soul into my life?" you might ask.

It's really simple. Live as if s/he is already in your life, pretend that s/he is already there living with you, coming home to you every day, and before you know it, s/he will be there. Prepare your place of living as if your Twin Soul is coming home every night, make it pleasant, inviting and romantic, make it sacred and holy and keep it that way. Don't meddle with "friends with benefits" just to "hold you over." Doing so will only keep him or her from coming to you. Keep your place sacred, keep your heart and your soul sacred by tuning into him or her frequently throughout the day. Write cards and letters, especially now during the holidays and Valentine's day is just around the corner. Date them and put them in a special box for when you can hand them over in real life. Put energy into your relationship "as if" your Twin Soul is already here.

Walk about your day with him/her by your side (energetically speaking). When you think about him or her, smile, let others see that you're in love with your Twin Soul. That you're taken and occupied by a special love that only you and your Twin Soul can complete. BELIEVE that s/he exists at this time. It's only a matter of time until you see his or her face...

Giving Up? Vision for the Day...

What an interesting dream, question and interpretation I experienced this morning!

The Dream:

I was pregnant with a baby boy and drove to a hospital in another city. The hospital was still under construction and had no official patients. The doctor was a friend of mine and he showed me to the bed in the surgery room, where I would be giving birth to my baby boy. The baby was due, however, he had not dropped yet at all and was not even close to being born. The doctor asked me if he could give me drugs to speed up the process and I said: "Absolutely not." He asked me for a glass of water and I gladly accepted a glass of water. After drinking it, I felt dizzy and disoriented. I was alert enough to know that I was given some drug to speed up the process, and I felt betrayed and angry. Luckily and miraculously, the baby didn't react to the drugs and remained where he was, he simply refused to drop as he was just not ready. The doctor came and we talked about him looking for a place around the hospital where he could buy a nice house. However, the houses around the hospital were very expensive and he said that he would have to settle for the second most expensive place a little ways down the street. I gave him a list of other places near by that had extremely nice houses, but his heart truly was to finding something in the most expensive area, he seemed disappointed. Then I woke up.

Here is the question I asked more than a week ago, which Spirit matched up this morning:

"Should I let go of you, close off the relationship, turn my back once and for all, and is there someone else who is my one and only Twin Soul?"

I have done enough dream analysis and soul searching to know that giving birth in any dream is always a good omen (unless it's giving birth to something not of the light). My boy didn't want to be rushed, even though the due date has arrived, which can be likened to the stars having aligned to you being born, you had the final say-so and you were simply not ready (it showed in the fact that you hadn't dropped yet). Although you hadn't dropped, I still went to the hospital because I wanted you to be born now. I wanted to force you... I want my Twin Soul to be with me now, I am impatient. And although I didn't accept the drugs to speed up the process (which could be likened to me forcing the issue), I did drink the water, which contained a form of drug to speed up the process. I have to accept that somehow my behavior acts like an ultimatum to you, and I'm sorry. Thank God the baby is wise enough to know that he is not ready and for not being forced to be born when in reality he is not ready yet. In other words, my Twin Soul is just not quite ready yet to be in my life in the real flesh, even though ironically speaking you live inside of me and get nurturing from me from within, without a doubt. You still have your own growth to complete before you can be in my life in the flesh.

Doctors in dreams very often represent the God Self within us, the masculine power that has the scalpel to make a difference in someone's life, to save a life, to perform surgery on our soul, so we can live. This doctor was a friend of mine, of course, God is my best friend. I'm at a loss to understand what it means that the doctor gave me water with drugs in it to speed up the process. Perhaps it's my subconscious way of manipulating God's eternal wisdom to bringing this Twin Soul into my experience now? Perhaps it means that I'm shoving God out of the driver seat, telling him that he is working too slow here, "move over, I can do this faster." Forgive me.

The hospital was still under construction, it's a building where people will be saved and gain new hope. My life with my Twin Soul will serve humanity to gain new hope for their lives, where they get a new lease on their love life. In order for this hospital to finish, I need to first give birth to this baby boy. In other words, I can't force my Twin Soul to enter my life healthy, vibrant and full of life, unless he is truly ready, only then can we make a difference in people's lives. Our tree is life-giving, shade-giving, a resting place, for humanity. Our roots need to be strong, solid and intertwined.

My friend feels as though he needs to settle for second best as far as his life is concerned. I often wonder if I have to settle for second best unless you see that you need to be born into our existence. I am your half, I need you to complete the existence of the yin-yang in us and for the world, the figure 8 that runs in a forever loop of eternity and abundance. Without you the hospital will never be finished, because I can't do it on my own.

I won't settle for second best. I want the very best, the whole of the whole, the seed within the yin-yang, I want it all. I am waiting patiently until you're ready to be born. And I vow not to rush you but to let you choose your own time of birth. And when you do, you will find me. And I thank the infinite wisdom to bring forth patience from within, so I can hold your space...

From my own memory of being born, I was born 10 days late, I remember thinking: "I'm not going through there!" It was painful being born, it was dark, unknown and I didn't want to give up the comfortable, the known. So I want to accompany you through your birthing process, by telling you that there is a whole new world waiting for you once you decide to take the plunge and be born. Awaken and take the journey, it's all worth it my love.

11/11 - Twin Souls...

One of the most intriguing messages of synchronicity has to do with the numbers 11:11, you may find those numbers jumping out at you from digital clocks, restaurant receipts, license plates, phone numbers and such.

"The appearance of 11:11 is an always beneficial act of Divine Intervention. It tells you that it is time to take a good look around you and see what is real and what is illusory. It's time to pierce the veils of illusion which keep us bound to an unreal world. You have been chosen, because you are ready, to step into a Greater Reality. To lead the way for others into a new way of living, into a Greater Love. To ascend from duality into Oneness. The 11:11 is the bridge between duality and Oneness. It is our pathway into the Unknown. " by Solara