When You Want to Hate...But You Just Can't...

Have you ever gone through such an ordeal by the hand of another that the "logical" next step would be to simply hate them? Perhaps you even want to take revenge on them and "show them" how it feels to hurt equally as much?

Taking revenge or hating someone has yet to bring peace or love back into your life or anyone else's for that matter...

There was a man in my life, you know who you are, who disguised himself as the love of my life and boy did it look just like that! And yet in the end he took off his sheep's clothing and turned out to be a merciless monster. I have walked through hell many times in my life time, and yet this was like no other hell. This was different because he created the garden of Eden for us but when he removed the veil it turned out to be pure hell.

How can anyone be so cruel, so relentless and wanting to hurt someone so badly?

And how is it that after all this I still can't find an inkling of hate for this person?

All I'm finding is compassion and empathy and as crazy as it may sound, I still find myself missing the good times that we did have, and we had lots of those. I miss our laughter, our giddy times, our communications, our connection most of all.

So while I am moving on in life, picking myself up by the bootstraps and dusting off my knees and extending my gratitude to the Universe for allowing me to feel and learn and grow so much, I can only hope that he will find peace in the very hell he created.

Remember that love does not come to you from your horizon, love comes from within you and spreads out beyond your horizon.

Love starts with you - right now!